really what the F U C K

Really what the fuck. I mean I knew uni was going to be hard but omg, the teacher I got I just do not understand at all its like he is talking a whole new lingo and I aint got the email. I was sat in class like whoa, wtf?!?

I got some more dirty looks from the girls in my class yay me im happy to know im doing something right that I can get in the faces of the stuck up little snob girls who think their better then everyone well listen love your just nothing more then a pile of shit really in the long vast world of Earth.

It amazes me how much I still love Red Eye the film is just brilliant I mean every time I watch it im still like omg nooo is she going to make it even though I know the out come. Its brilliant.

Ment to be going to a pub tonight for a bit dunno if I can be bothered but I don’t want to miss anything :P

So I may go I have IT tomorrow yay love it. So that starts at 11 so I have time to sleep yay.

what's that A B O U T

Week two of the university life, again quite a busy week with luck my life style will slow down a few steps as i’m finding it hard to keep up with it. I started my classes which I do enjoy more then I thought I would do. As I went into this thing blind folded I dunno what I was really expecting. But hey you only live once.
Some of the girls in my class, not all but most of them are just stuck up plastics. Im like the only guy in the class and I swear they look at me with such disgust its untru. A girl in front of my dropped her keys so I tapped her on the shoulder to tell her and she gave me a look of death I thought fire was going to come from her mouth and kill me. So yeah they don’t like me. However some of them do so that’s good, and the ones that do aren’t stuck up and crack so that’s good. I could handle it with the plastics at college so these bitchs are nothing.

I need to stop spending as I’ll end up so poor. I’v not been eating right though since being here and all I herd people say was ‘oh don’t worry you’ll eat better at uni then at home’ and you know what that’s a load of bull crap. I’v been eating far worse like really bad.
Me and Felix played a prank on everyone by taking the labels off their foods well it back fired as they have now done it to me. But hey its funny. Now I just have to hope I don’t open a can of custard with rice. Yummy.

So yeah classes are going well, its just the amount of work im going to have to do. And I thought college was bad boy I was wrong. Gutted much.

Yeah I did a messy thing the other night but shh. It was pretty mean of me, and I do feel bad but I’v said sorry there isn’t anything else I can do about it. Everything happens for a reason right!

Iv been getting in a Britney Spears mood the past few days and I have no idea why. I think its Sarahs fault! Dam her.
I met some people in town the other night that liked my Ginger Power top which was fun I then saw them later that night on the way home and gave them some chips. Also iv worked out I only eat cheese when drunk, I hate cheese but I’m always eating pizza when drunk. What’s that about?

Freshers W E E K

So I am at uni now hence the not posting for a while. It was freshers week so its been really busy and the likes. So ill try and write what happened each day. There’s a lot that has happened but I am not sure I will write them all down, it would take forever.

Saturday:
So I moved down to Leicester, my farther took me down we got a bit lost but managed to find it. I was the first one here so when I herd vices and I was like omgomgomg and didn’t dare go out until they had gone then I went to meet with Becky and Holly for a while. When I came back I came with Holly and if it hadn’t been for her I wouldn’t have introduced my self to the flat mates.
Ill give you a list of who is who, first you have Grant, then Ashleyy, Matt, Sarah, Lewis and Ellie. All of them are dead fun and cool so that’s good we also have this pet cat, well he is a guy but just comes here a lot but is called Felix.

I went for a few drinks that night with Holly, Beck and three of the flat mates living with them two. Kim is a brilliant laugh she reminds me of Jenni. I got a I love DMU top which turned out to be girl size so when I went to put it on it didn’t fit so Kiim went and changed it for me, ace!

Sunday:
I went with Becky to Asda to stock up on food and junk, so I got supplies. Then I erm. Me and the flat went to the SU bar that night which turned out to be eventful in some ways. I got dry humped by two fat girls… ew. The flat that night pretty much got to know each other and that during that morning and night.

Monday:
I can think what I did on Monday erm. Well it was enrolment and it was raining and I needed to get some more photos so me Matt and Ash went into town to get some during dinner turns out we didn’t need them. What a waste huh. I really cant remember. I think I stopped in.

Tuesday:
Ek I got so drunk I was crawling around and I stole a bible and drink from the dorm across from us. But I felt so bad about it the next day I went back there and gave them it back I didn’t drink any so it was good.

Wednesday:
By far the best night, it was the bar crawl with the uni and omg it was brilliant. Met a new girls Holly shes brilliant!! I had a argument with a bouncer at a club because he wasn’t going to let me in with my id as I had a citizen card though he is meant to accept it by law he didn’t so I was arguing with him I thought he was gunna hit me but in the end he was ie do you have a student card which doesn’t even have my age on it wtf? And let me in. Again I got really drunk, I was eating cheese I hate cheese yet when im drunk I eat it… ew.

Thursday or Friday:
That was the guys night out I think or it may have been Friday my days have just merged together. So me, Matt, Felix, Robert and Grant went out to have a few drinks and crack then we went to wait I think that was Tuesday :P grr I cant remember now at all that’s really bad I think.

Well Saturday I remember it was school disco and I got some ace shoes and a jumper but I spent a lot of money and im going to be soo poor its untrue. I looked well ace at school disco! All bright green and crack. Then last night was the Freshers Ball which again a great night I got really drunk and stil feel it now me and Felix stole a load of things from the street to put in the flat which then today we got our first warning. Our kitchen was messy and we had like a sheet of plastic in the hall, a corn, and posters and flyers from the street there. But it was brilliant fun. Well that’s all for now as im so tired im falling asleep at the key board I shall post photos later of them.

dont go to E D E N L A K E

I ventured to the cinema with Jenny with a y tonight, it was the last time I would see her before I move of to uni. We went to see EDEN LAKE.
It was tottaly nothing to what I thought it was going to be. I am way glad that it wasn’t. Boy that film is one of the best ever British Horror films ever made. And I will admit I was just talking about how Britain was lacking in horror films and taste. I take it all back now.

It is based around a couple Jenny and Steve who go to the lake before it has a new home estate built on it. He wants to ask her to marry him. When they get their they get harassed by guess, chavs. After by accident one of the yobs pet dog is killed as it tried to attack Steve it all goes wrong. The chavs start out a hunt for the two wanting them dead. Well the main yob wants them dead. The other just go along with it, they could have stopped at any point but they never did. They where weak they fell into peer pressure. I for one am happy they got what was coming to them well most of them.
Im going to be giving mad spoilers right now so beware.

The yobs hunt down the two who as they try to get away in the car crash she has to leave him stuck to get help, he told her to go and it’s a good job she did. The yobs took Steve tied him up with wires and stabbed him and cut him torturing him. The friends of the main chav they all look like they don’t want to go through with it yet they all do as he told them. They cut him and stab him. Then they feel bad about it well poo hoo them.

Soon they hunt for the girl who finds Steve who managed to get away she hides him as he is dyeing and bleeding a lot and she goes to get help before he dies.
She comes across a little boy they had met on there way to the lake before all of that. He says he can help her only he turns on her setting her up.

She gets knocked out to find she is tied to a tree with her lover and the yobs set fire to them, Steve was already dead when the ropes tying her burnt giving her seconds to get up and away. She manages to get away but they tell her they will set fire to the young boy who set her up she must not have thought they would but they did. They burned him alive.

The other yobs begin to feel worse for this. The only female one of the yobs films everything they do. Yet they never stop the main chav.
May I also add Jenny was Ginger! Which made me fall for her even more. Not only was she female but ginger. Whedon would be proud.
She decides if she is going to live she has to fight. She stabs the youngest of the yobs then realizing she wished she had never done it she tries to help him but he dies.

This gets the chavs more angry they tried to chase her again when she falls into the road and a car comes she gets into find its one of the chavs brothers he was looking for his brother when he gets out she steals his car when driving she runs over the teen girl. Yay.

When she gets out of the woods and lake she crashes near a house when she gets there she find it’s the rents of the chavs, when the main yob gets back he tells them about the girl and what not she tries to get out but she cant so the parents decide its her fault and don’t believe her and well it leaves it at that they killed her. That for me was heart breaking. I really fell for the character, she was female, ginger and a nursery teacher. I wanted to just cry. She didn’t deserve to die, I didn’t want her too. She is the only character in a horror film for me to go I hope they didn’t kill her and she is in the next one. I know right what’s happening to me.

The film just high lights what chavs and parents to chavs are like sure maybe not as much as that but look at all the knife crime around these days and this film was in the makes like 3 years ago so its not publicising on that which some people have bitched about. This film made me hate chavs even more. It just highlights the youth today and it makes me sick. I for one know what they are like I’m lucky nothing mega bad has happened to me and believe me it could have a lot of times.

This film should make chavs see that what they do is wrong yet I know it wont. It just makes me so sick and angry. I didn’t feel sorry for anyone of the chavs that died. I know they shouldn’t have and that they should have been locked up but I found I was happy when they got killed. Am I wrong for thinking this?

The law needs to be more firm, the police need to be out in the streets splitting up these groups and the parents need to put their foots down! Chav are sick and disgusting and I for one despise them. Sure they are not all the same and some are not as bad as most but the ones that are need to get the crap kicked out of them make them see sense. Anything!! Sickos!! As you can tell this film has left me really angry with chavs, I know its not real but in a sense it is real its happening now! Its sick.
And omg why did the ginger women Jenny die!! Gahhh

I think if they did another one it would see the friends of Jen and Steve looking for them and the parents of the yobs covering up the murders and then they turn on the friends of the couple trying to stop them from uncovering the truth! I hope it happens I want to see them get killed or arrested!

So yeah I really loved the movie, it was sad saying bye to Jenny sure I knew I would see her again but still im moving away its not the same as knowing she’s just down the road. It made me sad. So yes ill miss her lots.

the air i B R E A T H

I have been waiting for this film just as long as the X-files film. Oh my roy it was far worth the wait. This film has not been relished into the cinema in the UK or anywhere else other then USA where it didn’t last long. This beyond baffled me. The Air I Breath, based on an ancient Chinese proverb that breaks life down into four emotional cornerstones: happiness, pleasure, sorrow and love. Now it has a GodFarther like to it that its based around gangsters and stuff.

It stars Sarah Michelle Gellar, which isn’t well alright it is the reason I wanted to see this film but after watching the trailer I as hooked. Also stars Kevin Bacon, Brendan Fraser, Andy Garcia and Forest Whitaker. All of these are big Hollywood names. That alone should have made it a cinema release. Yet it wasn’t. Which completely perplexed me.

I will admit I was trying to put together what went where in the storyline as it is like Pulp Fiction in the sense of its going back and forth. Yet it still had be cribbing shouting noooooo. At the end it all comes together and you can see how these four people have changed each others lives with out some of them never even meeting.

You never learn any of the four peoples names however SMG’s character who is a pop star uses a fake name that people call her. I would have loved for it to have been longer and for more action and what not but what I got kept me more then happy. It had sad points in the film where you really did feel for the characters, it had a few funnys and it had action.

It got mixed reviews people saying it wasn’t anything good yet most of the people who reviwed the film all gave Sarah Michelle Gellar thumbs up for her work. She should have gotten an award as the film should have. I remember reading that on the Internet Data Base it was ranking high in the top films, but the Godfarther fans didn’t like that and omg they are far worse then trakkies. They voted down the film because of its godfarther likeness just because it was about gangsters yet it was far more then that. Pleasure had the gift to see the future, however his gift fails him fro the first time and he begins to take a different turn in life. Sorrow is a pop star with it all however she is owned by the ruthless crime boss. Happiness lives the same endless live over and over never taking a chance until he takes it. And Love is a man who loves his best friends wife and needs to save her life.

This film is now and proudly on my top 10 list. It is worth a watch and deserves to win some awards. The USA critics didn’t like it took much however out side of the USA the critics loved the film so I am beyond confused to how this film isn’t getting the praise it needs and deserves. Infact i think i read it had won a few awards during film fests and such. So at least it got some notice!!

Here is the trailer, it had me hooked.

the mist will C L E A R

I went into college today to pick up some things and to see the teacher before I go. I felt really out of place, all the kids their looked around 15 and I was walking with Holly at 19 feeling out of my time. I found my self looking at them and saying the youth today, pf I was better ner ner. It was odd. Really odd walking in their knowing I wasn’t going to be there for another year. However I only have like 3 days till im at uni and ee I don’t know if im excited or what but I cant wait to move out.

The sun hung high, the burning sun of fire peering over the land like a fox looking over its meal. The sloth drank the acid of the river, like it was drinking the fountain of youth. It’s tong sizzled. The sun watched. The wind blowing chatters of the sun danced flowers as they sung the rhymes of the old ones. Stallions jumped over the pink knee high grass talking of things Mr Frog did to his children the night before. The dirty old grey frog, the horses called as they hurried past his place of living.

Mr Frog denied what they said he had done, the jury of rabbits nibbling at their carrot, ears picking up as they hear the lies the slimy frog told. The stench of dead fly’s filling the room.
The badger muttered the words of the old ones condemning him to death by hanging. The bears giggling like little school girls as they put their paws up to their mouths whispering the tales of the days events. Their mouths filled with lies and slur like it was something that they did daily. Each time more lies spilling out like blood spilling from the open wound of the dieing lion who cried in pain, “help” he roared with his dieing last breath. No one helped they carried on littering around in the wind like dust.

The ruby red blood ran down the green turning the once lush green grass red. It ran till no more blood could run. The lion was left with no blood, the pixies drank it thanking god for the gift. The little red elephant danced around the mice stamping on them as they laughed.

I got bored. =/

im so S I C K

Yay. So I have been looking for the Alice, American McGees game for a long time and I mean long, from when I herd SMG was going to be in the movie, which has been going on for like years now. It came through today which im happy about as I only ordered it Sunday. I couldn’t resist putting it on to give it a go and omg I cant get used to the controls. It’s a pc game and you have to use the mouse click to hit, as well as moving the camera around and then you have to use like w,a,s,d to move around and its just took much for my little mind. So maybe I should get a control pad for it. The game its self is good. I aint done much on it as I gave up after dieing once. So ill have another go at some point :P

Which brings me to “what the hell is happing” I mean they said Sarah Michelle Gellar was going to play Alice, and this got a lot of haters on IMDB. And I just don’t understand why, sure in the game Alice is what barely 19? But SMG can play a character at her early 20s she is only 31[I think] and she doesn’t look aged at all. So I don’t understand the up roar about that. They can change the age im sure as im sure they will change other things in the film.

Sarah has proven she can play so many characters, her talent is plain to see, no one can deny her that. I mean look at Buffy, Cruel Intentions, and Air I Breath. She has gotten grand applause for her acting. If people think she can not do disturbed or what not then have you seen ‘Normal Again’ the Buffy episode, have they seen her in The Return? People are saying they want this film to be a indie thing, well SMG can do indei, she isn’t what you would call a Hollywood girl, she doesn’t pick movies because they may be block busters she picks them because they interest her. I just want to go down as saying to all the haters, get over your self’s, and why not watch something she has done before flaming nobs.

On the topic of Alice I found this really cool youtube video. Some said they didn’t like the Fly Leaf bit but I think it added to it, im not a fan of soft music in films and junk like this I like the heavyish stuff.

with a S M I L E

He made the promise
He told her of love
He did this with a smile
She truly believed

His sickening lies
Filling her thoughts
He smiled
She simply cried
He replied
“Slut”

She believed him
The love, the promise, his smile
He said he would give it her all
He did this
With a smile of reassurance

She believed him
He took her innocence with joy
She lost it with regret

She believed him
He took her beliefs away
Just as he gave it
She did not believe them now

i want a [ l i f e ] with out the tie

Seven days today, my life will take a big change. I will be moving to Uni. I still don’t know what to think about it. I mean people keep asking me if im scared and what not but im just thinking why the hell should i? I mean what am I going to get killed or raped as soon as I walk out of the door. I think not. I think im looking forward to this life change. Im not a family person and people know that, Gemma even said that the other day as we talked about Uni. Im a friends person. So I will not be feeling down because im moving away from my family because well im 19 years old people im not a baby and you know what birds leave their young at like what a few weeks once they can get food for them self’s. Turtles don’t even see their young.

So I really don’t understand why people would think I would feel sad abut leaving. My mother acts like im dyeing. She says I best call her or text her now and again and such and that I better come back during my breaks. I just think god get over it im a adult now I can live my life. I mean ill send a xmas card their way each year. I just don’t see the whole big deal that im moving on in life. Everyone has t do it at some point. My whole family from uncles to aunts to my rents they all live close to family. They all see them when ever they could. Gemma is moving back from uni to one closer to home because she missed it but me I couldn’t get away fast enough. The only other person in my family was my uncle he moved to black pool however he moved back. I don’t to be that person who gets his free done and then moves back to his home town. I don’t want that. So I plan on being that person that finds his self a life and moves from his home town to some where he can call his own home town and not one he was born into.
I want a life where I can call it mine, not one that I can say or yes my family live just down the road. That’s my plan, once im over with uni I will find a job some where not in Sheffield, if I have to move back their whilst I look I can Handel that but with out a doubt I will not be here when I grow old. I will not turn out like my family.

smells like A C I D R A I N forming at the ear

the angels do not speak

as the birds to not tweet

the snow falls like rocks

and they smell just like socks
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he held onto them both
fingers wrapped around the sloth
its tongue like acid rain
as it screamed in pain
yet the boy giggled
as he wiggled
all the way home
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bodies will rot
yet they smoke the pot
that looked just like snot
and wank their cock

as he waited for the shot