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Dollhouse - True Believer [review]

So I watched episode five of Dollhouse today which is now a ritual for me and Skipper every Saturday. I feel so proud I have gotten people addicted to it.
So today’s well yesters episode was called ‘True Believer’ where we see Echo getting implanted with a imprint of a blind person who believes in god and thinks he has lead her to this camp. They for this engagement made her blind using her eyes as cameras so they could see.

There is this religious cult on the outskirts of a town that has grown to hate them and I would some may fear them as they do not know what it is they are doing in the impound, a shop keeper finds a note he believes is from one of the people from the impound saying ‘save me’.

We later find out it was a set up so the feds can get permission to invade the impound as they believe something big is happening inside. Now it really doesn’t clarify if something is in fact happening. The leader [who is an ex con turned god believer] has a stash of guns I say stash he had more then around 40. However he says he has that because he knew some one/gang or whatever would attack them. He knew the day was coming.

He later thinks Echo is the reason for the feds coming for them which sure she is but shh he didn’t know that. Anyhow he slaps her around in anger and mess’s up the camera in her eyes making her see again they all think it’s a miracle from god.
So he decides to set fire to the building they are all in referring to a part in the bible were I don’t really know as I ain’t read the damn thing but some people came out of a fire unburned and such… well he wanted to test that thinking god would save them all well the ones that are pure and believe the ones that do not will die. Well Echo feels she didn’t get her sight back to watch people die so she gets them all out after punching out the leader etc. We then find that the big boss’s right hand man back at dollhouse really has it in for Echo and goes there to kill her well he knocks her out so she would burn however her handler saves her yet again which I love it’s brilliant that we get to connect with him so much, as we can not really connect to Echo as she is different all the time it’s good to connect to some one who is connected to her. You can see his love for her is there.

We also find that V is starting to have ‘man-reaction’ over S which was brilliant. It was good to see some Whedon-verse humour in the mix.

This was a really good episode I mean it had a lot of good moments in it. I love the relationship of T and Dr S and Echo and B. The writing was brilliant which isn’t unusual when it’s Tim writing. Next week should be brilliant yet again. As Joss Whedon will be taking back the show. Fox had a lot of say in the first 5 episodes, but they gave up after a while letting Whedon take full control which I think is a very good idea. Fox really do not know what they are doing so they should leave it up to the people that do. I also how they take it off the Friday death slot same as Sarah Connor I mean it is not a good idea. Fridays are nights when people go out which means they would miss a lot of views on the night it airs. True people DRV and watch it on Hulu and Fox sites. However it will not matter if Fox decide to only count the air night view counts lets how not.

I would give this:
8/10

T M N T wooot

I have been having big problems… firstly I am now again addicted to 90s music… secondly I missed a dead line at uni because I didn’t finish the work. However I had been ill for two weeks and the teacher had not given me an extension and I didn’t know what I was doing so in my defence it was not really all my fault. I’m handing it in on Tuesday. I know the teacher is going to be beyond rat assy with me, but the uni has the 7 days late hand in rule I get 40% knocked off but I was only expecting 40% anyhow. I hate pattern cutting big time.

My body is getting tired waaay too easy of late. I’m feeling tired all the time the only time I am not tired is during the night when I should be tired man it is not normal.

I watched Stardust the other night with Skipper. I really enjoyed it however after finding out Sarah Michelle was going to be playing the part of the fallen star I felt let down. Still brilliant.

I have grown a new love for TMNT I have been watching the movies and the original tv show. How fun!! I love it I really want to buy the comics now so I can see them in their true form. Woop. Who doesn’t love them really I mean they’re turtles for Christ sakes and Ninjas’ to boooooooot!!

All i E V E R wanted

I’ve come to notice that I have not made a blog post in quite a while. It’s not like I have been that busy that I couldn’t even make a blog post, I guess it just really didn’t think about it that much. I would love to say a lot has happen well it has but nothing really of dire interest I don’t think.

Uni has been going well. I say well I’m getting by. I would say it is mainly pattern cutting that is the pain in my ass. The work just keeps on coming for that class and I’m lost with it all. I know I shouldn’t be I mean I did it at college but at uni it all seems different. They have different ways of doing things and it’s confusing me to the point were I’m like do I really want this. However next year we don’t have it so woop to that. I just need to pass it first. I know I failed my first tech folder which in my defence I was going through a bad time when that was being done. I was trying to move, I was going through my monthly dark times and I had issues going on which lead to panic attacks. However the teacher would just say “And that’s my problem how?”

I have been ill for two weeks with Tonsillitis which was not fun. I missed a lot of uni because of that. I managed to get a extinction on a piece of work which I was grateful for. I was hoping I would get it with Pattern Cutting but no. I have to have a shirt made by Thursday and a presentation done. I just don’t understand how I am meant to do all this when I have been out of action for two weeks. My pattern for the shirt is not even done it keeps going wrong yet I used the block she gave me. She has not gave me any help, I’m doing a mans shirt which is different to a women’s and she gave me not help at all. She just expects me to know what to do. Balls to that!!

I can not wait for next year I am getting endlessly tired of living in halls with the people I live with I mean sure I like them all but it’s the untidiness of it that is making me crazy. Next year in the house it will be better. Me, Holly [Dollface], Sarah and Jon are clean so it will not be a problem. However one problem may be in the way…

Kelly Clarkson brought out her new album and I’m addicted to it. Again she sings top notch!! Buffy comes are going well. The last two issues have been readable really but that latest one was good. I’m awaiting the next arc with Oz and Willow should be good.

Dollhouse is epic. I knew it would be, it being by Joss but it’s getting very mixed reviews. I don’t understand why. People know Joss doesn’t like to make things easy for the brain he likes to make you think and that’s what’s happening, what fun is their in knowing all the answers right away? Apparently Fox had a lot to do with toning down the first 5 episodes but number 6 they gave up so we will be seeing a lot more Joss after number 5! The ratings are not the best for the show however if you include the DVR ratings and Hulu and Fox online and Itunes Dollhouse is doing really well. Fox should include them in the numbers I mean they put Dollhouse in the Friday death slot. I’m sure Dollhouse will get a season 2 even if a lot don’t, sorry but you guys are wrong!

That’s all for now.

K I N D E R eggs ;; ] ;;

Eventful half hour!!

Me and Ashley had a craving for none other then kinder eggs. So we walked to Nats the shop to buy two. We got there and started shaking them to see if they were put together ones or whole ones. I’m not one for the put together ones I think they look icky. So we stood there shaking them and some one Ashley knew walked up to her and started talking so then I asked her if she thought these where put together toys. A random first question to ask some one you have never met before but I did it. Then we got onto a whole discussion about Kinder Eggs and how she has a tub of them at home so then we ended up going back home with her to steal some of her toys. Well Ashley took some I was just stood there amazed by the studentness of the house. Well after that then we went to Sainsbury’s to buy more. So we just got as many as we could with the money we had on us. I got like 8 more and she got 6. We were stood fumbling with them trying to not drop them. The man serving us looked at us like we were some kind of freaks. Which to be fair we were buying an awful lot of kinder eggs. I couldn’t even eat all the chocolate I felt like was about to throw up. Not good. Then we sat down made a necklace out of the eggs and watched Dumbo.

Random night’s for the win!!!

new Y E A R ;;

I’v not blogged since before Christmas which was quite a while since, I’d have like to have a million and one stories to talk about since my last blog but really I’v only got like none. Well nothing that would make you gasp in shock or disbelief.

I went home for two weeks, which was really odd. For one I didn’t have a room at the family home as my sister took my bedroom, so I had to stay at my granddads which to be fair I said I was going to do that in any case. I’m not a fan of family as people know from my old blogs, but this Christmas I must admit was better for family. They didn’t grate on my as much which I think is a big improvement. To be fair it was better because I was at my granddads so I didn’t see my family that much.

For the first time I got drunk in front of the family which I regret. I thought Gemma was going to come and get ready with me and drink before we went into the club but she didn’t so I had the bottle of vodka to my self and well more drink when I got into the club. My family were beyond taking the piss out of me. I was sat ‘brap-ing’ like I was a black man. Then I got up on stage and sung and all. The morning after I couldn’t remember most of it and my family were laughing at me.
What pissed me off mind was the fact my mother said to me “Did you enjoy Christmas more this year as you drank?” I was just like wtf, I do not need to drink to enjoy Christmas. It was like she was saying I needed drink to have a good time. Which pissed me off muchly.
I came back to uni early as well since Kit Kat and Ashley were going back too. It was a wicked week. Did nothing but sleep, sleep, eat, watch movies and drink. I so didn’t want it to end.

However now uni has begun again and I have so much work I have to do its untrue. I just cane seem to get in the right frame of mind to do the work. It’s not good at all. However mah I’ll manage it some how I always do.

hand C R E A M

This year again I will become a scrooge and not.. I repeat not celebrating Christmas. In fact I’m going to act like iv never herd of Christmas. I’m not wanting gifts or cards. I just want to relax. Sleep, read books, watch tv and eat. That is my goal this year. I just ain’t feeling it again this year. Roll on the new year!!

I will possibly celebrate it next year. But this year. Nopes.

I was hoping to be home a week earlier this term but I don’t think its going to happen now as I have plans Sunday to go to the cinema with some one. I want soo much to just go to my granddads and lazy around the house.

I finally finished my essay this week which I don’t think I did too well as I didn’t read the books I was meant to read as meh boring so I just made it up but it sounds alright just aint got many quotes.

Been ill a lot lately which I think is because im not eating right so my body aint got the power to fight off the illness. Gutted much.

Whooa W O R K

I used to think college work was a handful. Whooa uni work is just mind blowing I mean whoa. I spent this week in my room not going out doing a project that granted I should have done earlier but you know. I’v nearly gotten it done yay however I still have 3 essays, another CAD project and all my pattern cutting work to do for Christmas. It isn’t a good time right now. Im trying my best to work my ass off to get this work done. But im taking the weekend off this week as iv worked beyond hard. Now its time to relax for a while. Yay.

face looks better were the sun dont SHINE

I’v been slacking in the posting deparment of late. I know im a bed one. Shame on me. However iv had reasons for this. I mean hello uni! Takes a lot of my time up seeing as im there every day which is stupid! For the past 3 years iv had two days off from college and now none! Makes a guy feel sick.

So this week has been my no drinking week because well Felix is a bad influence on me. Last weekend we went to Hollys for a party her family were throwing. Her mother got us a bottle of vodka and well we ended up drinking the lot job and getting ill say a little too drunk. However we didn’t break anything or put her to shame we were good but the next door we ended up doing the same again in c block. It pretty much killed me. I was soo dead the next day. So I decided no drinking so far so good. The guys have gone out so im now left alone great. Joys. Alone. It sucks I wanna be out with them but no stupid no drinking week. And I cant go to Carnage because my drivers permit thing aint come, and people here have been rejecting my other ID, I have no idea why because it says you gotta accept it. And if I took like a passport or something out and lost it, it would be a bitch to pay for. Where as if you get the Prove of Age card its like £10 to get back. Some places accept it others don’t its gay.

I got kicked out of a pub for buying a hot coco because I didn’t have ID on me what kindda place are we living in!!! Sick. =p

So uni work is mounting up, the Pattern Cutting class is just whoa too much she moves to fast one moment where drawing a pattern out the next making a skirt. I missed one lesson from illness and I emailed her before class telling her and asking if she could tell me what I missed and have to do and she didn’t email me back till a week later I was beyond mad. So now im behind. Great. Bitch.

Had a test the other day for a class where I can not understand the teacher. I tell him that he just lol’s in my face. The dick.

However I love CAD, the best lesson by far. Buying Skills is good im enjoying that. Just gotta get my work done for that, a whole project to get done in a week. Opps.

Iv not really looked for a job as I don’t think I could handle it right now. Gutted as I need money.

Im trying to move rooms. Big problem. I thought it would be easy but no its really hard. Which adds to the stress. Im moving because Matt hasn’t gotten over me. It’s making it horrible for me to live next door when I hear him crying or throwing things around his room. Im like omg has he hurt him self and I cant handle living next door to that constant fear that he has. He turns really emo when he is drunk and he seems to be drinking a lot to get his feelings out. I told him to get help but I don’t think he will.

When I told student services about it because I wanted to move they told me to go and get counselling……great. Real help they were.

My problems with relationships have calm down thank god now. The guy that was harassing me has stopped. Matt is trying to stay away from me. So its all good. Plus im meeting some guy next week which should be fun. With luck he aint a freak. Fingers crossed.

People keep asking if me and Felix’s are a thing and its really beginning to annoy me.

Its just saying that a gay guy cant be friends with a straight guy, the gay will want the straight. That’s not the case. We are just friends but people don’t see that. Okay yeah it looks odd when we both have the word love written on our arms [but it was world wide love day] and we do argue a lot and are seen together a lot but that doesn’t mean I want him or we are together. Its just annoying.

I think that’s about all I need to write for today.

Ill try and update more on my life and thoughts.

Peace out!

life of G A M E S

Happens to me all the time and being a uni makes no difference in fact I think it may have made it worse. Its that time of the month where all the baggage iv managed to tape in a box and push to the back of my mind is finely overflowing. Well ill start with some of the problems im having. One is the course im studying. I like aspects of the course well I like it all really. But its just some of then that leave me thinking wtf did just happen. Like pattern cutting. Back at college I always managed to do that I didn’t like it but I did it. Here its way harder. I had to make my own block then I have to do drafts and patterns and all these have to be done at home not in class. The teacher doesn’t help that much she tries but she doesn’t. If she had sat down and shown us what to do then I would have got it but she doesn’t so it just leaves me thinking what the hell happened. However I will manage with it. I just gotta figure out what it is im needed to do. Then there is Textiles Materials, oh my roy, its ridiculous. The teacher is German so I cant really understand what he says, he talks quite so that makes it even harder. He is wanting us to make Yarn…… yes yarn……..i know yarn…….wtf.

Then well theirs my active life behind Uni. Iv had about what 5 days off now from going out with friends and stuff. Its not good. Then well theirs my ties with relationships. Yes people Luke is having them problems here. Iv come to the conclusion that I really am just a head fuck. People keep falling for me and wanting a long term thing and I cant give that, lots of reason why and iv possibly talked about them before in my wonderful blog of life. Im also too nice for my own good, I cant say no. I hate having to make people upset yet I keep on doing it, I had to dragged away one night because I couldn’t say no to going to Mosh with some one, which would have ended badly if I did.

I would have thought gay people would more up for fun but that’s not what im finding here. Their clingy, needy, sloppy and its like wth, the when they ask what do you want all I can say is I don’t know. Because I don’t, my mind doesn’t work like other peoples I almost never know what I want, I think you have to be in complete trust and liking for your self before you can really now what you want in life and I haven’t got there yet. Gutted much.